Today I am on my period, so I am having major mood swings. I am about to get really angry at my friend who is bitching because he thought I went behind his back. I have rage in my stomach. I need to calm down.
This is only a small part of what it is like to live with Bipolar Disorder. I am not usually an angry person. I am usually depressed and solitary or hyper and active. But today is a swinging day.
I felt worry when I woke up. Contentment in class. And now anger. My mood swings affect me emotionally, and physically; and I feel like no one understands me and everyone takes for granted that I am mentally ill.
Bipolar, like every mental disorder, is a disease. My brain doesn’t balance chemicals properly. To help this I take a mood stabilizer, and other medications. But I’m not fixed. I still have depression and mania; also worry and panic.
I have more problems caused by my mental illness ranging from psychosis to OCD. My dad says I am the poster child of Problem Children.
My wish is that the facts of Bipolar Disorder and other illness were taught more readily in lower education, so that stigmas would be less prevalent. Also, if more people knew what my disorder was like they would understand me as a person better.
